Myself

Life is constantly changing and moving, which isn’t always great for a girl who isn’t a fan of change. I do not mind change mind you, change isn’t an enemy, it can be a great thing. It’s just that in order to function, I have to have a routine and a schedule. So when that is interrupted, I am thrown for a loop until I can figure out a new one.

Last month was a very odd month for me. I don’t really know how to put it into words, but I just felt off, not myself. Don’t get me wrong, it was a great month, a lot of fantastic things happened, and I enjoyed it all, there were just many moments when I was alone in my house that I didn’t think things were right. The only conclusion I can come up with, is that when I moved into my house, I was on a marathon until the end of February. I moved, a week later was Sarah’s shower, work was insane with Annual Meeting, we were all prepping for baby, and several other events. I didn’t stop until the end of February and boy was I glad to get off that train. I don’t think I had time to fully adjust to my new “house” lifestyle. I don’t have a fantastic routine down yet for bills, or chores, and I’m not nearly as organized as I would like to be.

It all hit me in March that I’m not up to the bar that I set for myself. I had grand ideas for my house. I had dreams of organization systems, and filing cabinets, and great routines. I wanted lists of what I would accomplish weekly, monthly, quarterly, and here it is, month 3 and I don’t have those things done yet. I know my end goal, I just have to figure out how to accomplish it. Not having these things accomplished somehow seeped into other areas of my life, where I was able to beat myself up, and that isn’t right.

So now that is it April 4^th, it’s time to turn over a new leaf! It’s time to accomplish that goal that I set for myself. It’s time to become that “super OCD organized girl” that I used to be. It’s time to figure out a plan and set it into action. Wish me luck!